So I got this call from my mom, her best effort yet. This time she called to see if I would take her to her first meeting of Narcotics Anonymous! NICE! Love it. Now in a perfect place like Pleasantville or Mayberry maybe I could take my mom to her first NA meeting and a light would go on and she'd never pop a pill again. She would work all 12 steps and become sweet and humble and yes even accountable. What part of dont contact me til you get clean dont these people get? First Stephanie, with strange cryptic calls. Her wounded child reaching out to Mommy. Now my "MOM" I guess you can say Im a lil perturbed and disturbed by these jingles them 2 keep giving me. I think if they were serious theyd call me after one of those hard to get to rehabs or meetings and share what an amazing experience they are having. Blah blah blah so if Im a little negative forgive me.I wish wish wish I had something good to say at the end of this diatribe but I dont. Oh ok, how bout I love them and hope they get clean.
Ughhh

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I am humbled and amazed at god working all over in my life. I was just cursing god a few days ago and now everywhere and everyplace I look I see evidence.
I can't really say I have every little detail and logistic worked out but I have some ideas on which way I need to head. Divine guidance happens when I let go. To my absolute delight my clairvoyance is expanding. I am doing some major growing in my psychic senses. Its not just in seeing, its in hearing. Hearing used to scare me. Its not so scary anymore. I am so grateful because I know this is part of my personal journey here. I don't understand some of the mechanics of the day to day. Existential blues take over sometimes. I know who I am more and more. I know that the souls in my life are sparks. I love everyone in my world. I am not sure how healthy I am but I am on the right path FINALLY. Deception and denial and illusion have been cancelled out by acceptance,honesty and actuality.