I am completely giving all matters pertaining love and partnership to my HP.
I only want what is truly for me and what is truly mine.

I am in such a space that I dont know what to believe even though I know the truth. It is true that these things make you crazy. I am revolted and disgusted that he is even a second thought as he has dismissed the entire thing as a crazy paranoid delusion.

It is so plain and obvious what happened. While I was crying and upset over our umpteenth fight over nothing he decided to create a profile to get over me with anyone and everyone he could the NEXT DAY!. We worked it out so he hasnt went back. Thats about right I think. Oh and BTW his ALT profile was completely different so was all other 20 profiles.
However since he never went back it never happened I made it up or some phantom hacker put in that information I dont fucking think so. I decided to check out his accounts because my baby wants me to marry him I just wanted peace of mind.Instead I got clear indisputable proof of what he does while Im crying my soul out note my post 2/26/2011 at 956 while he was creating his profile at the exact same time. I am a terminal fool.

Checkmate

You know I feel him distancing and dissociating from me. I have done it myself so I know what it is and what it looks like. It hurts me. I know in my heart he does love me. I can only guess he has a lot of pain and residual stuff from his past 2 relationships. I know I havent been easy. He did try counseling and we have gone back and forth a few times only to end up back together.If we break up we get back together within a few days. I can see he is not happy. He has put on weight. I have put on weight. I know he is window shopping. I just have to believe that God and the Angels have my back. Angels please help me not act out and stay in composure and dignity. I am embarrassed and humiliated that on Valentines day of last year he signed up for a dating site. Is called long haired singles.As of Feb 26th he joined collarme soo obviously I was nothing.It has been true all along that he has been unable to move on really with me. It could be me,my personality,my weight Idk but for whatever reason--I am not sure what to do. I feel at an emotional checkmate.In a rage he told me he was sick of my hippy shit,which to me translates into hes been tolerating my belief systems? My feelings are beyond hurt.